Ahh… wonderful mind… hmmm… where are you? I have convinced myself of your existence. I have given you shape and form as God did me. I have called you ‘mind’ and Ego, I have fought you like Don Quixote fought windmills.

When I ask myself, ‘what is mind?’ I have a vague experience of, well… ‘something.’ But what if that something is just a ‘something’ and all this talk has convinced me that this something is more a thing than any other idea floating around.

And actually, the same applies to ‘I.’ There is a vague experience but is it not merely a ‘thing’ I have constructed? Is this not true for anything I have an experience of and have given a word to?

Where are these ideas floating around you might ask? Well… certainly not in my mind! If anywhere they are simply in the all/everything and nowhere in particular. Sounds strange? But ask yourself if it isn’t true! And before you start doubting your own experience, listen to what is speechless in the answer you receive.

In Hebrew there is no word for ‘mind.’ Maybe there is a good reason for that!

the Demiurge is a Gnostic term for the created who thinks it is creator. In the Gnostic myth a being was created or maybe it was ‘Spirit given form.’ This form congealed and became, ‘I.’ This ‘I’ was a thought. This thought ‘I’ produced other thoughts. Some of those thoughts were ‘I am God’ or ‘I am creator’. The Gnostics say that this thought ‘I’ became the creator of all that is in matter – this is why the world is imperfect – because it’s creator is imperfect – a thought that is not true. A thought that is separate from its source and ignorant of it. The primal misperception as it were.

In each one of us there is this God – this demiurge. In each one of us there is a thought ‘I’ who does not acknowledge that it is only a thought and not the creator of that thought. It goes on to create many twisted things and many pleasurable things all in an attempt to service this ‘I,’ this ‘self.’ It is happening every moment.

We have learned to call this ‘I,’ Ego. We use our thoughts to fight it – to get rid of it. But it is the very thoughts created by the ‘I’ that are fighting it. This fight is what gives the ‘I’ meaning. To eliminate the ‘I’ - do not fight it, simply recognize that all the thoughts that it produces are as mistaken as their origin. Awaken to what is beyond ‘I’ - simply rest there and all delusion will gradually disintegrate like clouds on a sunny morning. Can’t beat that… (-: